Papa

I had a dream of you last night again, Pa. This is the third since you left this world. 

The first was a few months after you passed away. In my dream we are going to a running event with Mama. We were in a hurry not to miss the start of the race. When we were about to leave, suddenly you became a flower. I watched it grew until the flower bloomed and then I woke up. 

Second time is a dream of you in the hospital. I was taking care of you. In my dream, you don't even look like your sick and in pain. You were happy and we were laughing. You were your usual self, who jokes around and seems not to take things seriously. And then I woke up. 

And then last night, I dreamed of you again. I was in Hongkong ready to fly back to Manila and I messaged Cristy to ask how you've been. She said that you're doing well and still in the hospital. And I said, as soon as I arrived in Manila, I will take the earliest flight to Dumaguete and then in my dream I was confused. I knew you were gone but Cristy's messaged says otherwise. And then I woke up. 

Four days was all it took for us to lose you. I was not there, not Mama and not Kuya nor Insong. COVID happened and going to you was not as easy as it should have been. Maybe this is the reason why I dreamed of being able to take care of you in the hospital. 

But despite what had happened, I am thankful for the family that took care of you in behalf of our absence. We are blessed to have people and family who cares for you, Pa. You are deeply loved by many. Although, it pains us that you are not with us in this world, I trust in God's goodness that you are in a better place now. 

God's work was displayed in the wake of your passing. That even in painful things, we could see His glory. We have seen how God sent people to comfort and help us in this trying times. Financial assistance, offer of encouragement and comfort in prayers. After the day of your passing, a member of our church, Naomi called me to ask for any prayer request. She randomly chose my name that day, without knowing about the current pain I am going through. She cried with me on the phone and shared my hurt and she prayed for me. Clearly, this is through God's work that she is able to comfort me with God's words at the very time I really need it most. 

I was blessed to have an Aunt who is also a believer and called a Pastor to pray for you. On your wake, God's word was shared to people who have attended the service. This verse was shared: 

John 14:6 6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." 

Isn't that wonderful, Pa?! Through our suffering and pain, God has been glorified. 

You are always in my heart, Papa!💓

My Gratitude List (29/09/2019)

Today is Awana day and usually after work I go straight to Awana to volunteer. I was supposed to take the taxi to reach early for the scheduled parent meeting and to my horror, I forgot to bring money. I only have AED10 and the minimum taxi fare is AED12.  I frantically thought of ways to solve this, weighing my options to still be able to arrive early, given with little resources. And then, I thought of checking my laptop bag just in case I have left some change in there. My bag is not an option since I just cleaned and sorted it earlier that morning. To my surprise, there is AED20 bill! Praise God for everyday blessing such as this one! 

Rant of an Emotional Mom

It was one of those afternoon calls I make to my Little Girl to chit-chat on her day at school.  I was eager to make this one because she just attended her school's Christmas party.  However, I was troubled when my upbeat "How's your day?" was answered with a dejected "It was fine."

Then I found out she cried during the party because the kid who picked her name wasn't able to make it. At this point, my heart ached for her but it shattered to pieces when I saw pictures of kids opening their gifts. Imagine this, 30 or so kids opening their gifts, shrieking with laughter upon seeing their newly gotten possession, running around wildy to show it off to their friends and there in one corner of the room, there's your Little Girl with nothing on her hands, feeling left out with the chaos going on around her.  (That may be an exaggeration on some parts but I'm a mom and she's just six who happens to be as emotional as I am.)

Yes, the teacher gave her lots of prizes upon knowing she cried (I am grateful for that). Yes, she will receive the gift come January (which I don't wish to receive anymore). But that moment of being left out?!?! It will never be undone.

Anyhow, those events did not inspire me to write this but today's events did.  It was our company's Christmas party earlier and of course I participated on the exchange gift activity. We had this wishlist and I listed Shopkins for my Little Girl.  Now, I don't want to pretend do be an all out selfless mom here because truth be told, I wished for an eyebrow pencil first. 😂😂😂

So, I changed it and I'm so glad I did. When all gifts were distributed we were asked to open our gifts at the same time. And there, while watching my Little Girl opening my gift,  I felt that she finally got her moment.  I was overwhelmed on how happy she was, how she keeps on telling me she really had a great time and she's so glad that I tagged her along.

Like i've said, what happened on her school's party cannot be undone but I hoped it will be replaced with good memories such as this one.

Thank you Dhors for giving what I have written on my wishlist. Thank you Lea for buying an extra gift for Kenzi. Thank you guys!😘

As for my Little Girl, I hope the experience makes you tough. It saddens me I can't protect you from all the pain in this world but know my child I'll be here to make your world a little bit better.

As for walking I-don't-care-piece-of-sh*t-pretending-to-be-human-beings out there...I hope my children will never cross paths with your kind.

My Gratitude List (11/07/2016)

I found this quote yesterday and immediately shared it.  It hits right on on how I really feel about being a mom.  Especially now that the kid is getting bigger, she has this charisma, this wackiness and blissfulness that never fails to amaze me everyday.

Three weeks ago, I tag her along with me on a book sale.  I gathered books that she might like and asked her to select books she wanted me to buy.  The shopkeeper was laughing on how she did the selection.  I can't even believe how weird and crazy she can get coz she opted to smell each books to know which to bring home.

The other day, she was telling her cousin while in the shower that her dad will lock the fridge if she gets really, really fat.  She says this in such seriousness.  She even told her that it will only be unlocked if she becomes thinner.  It really cracked me up.

Now, she has this habit of giving us names.  She now calls me her Little Butterfly, her Dad is her Little Papay and she wants us to call her Knot-knot.  I knowwww...crazy right?

Life, Oh Life

It has been a tiring month for me.  A lot has been happening lately.  My mom is here in Abu Dhabi, the family now has it's own crib, I am back to studying plus everyday tasks that keeps me occupied.

There are moments when you just want to pause for awhile and not think of anything.  My head is in a mess and my emotion's a roller coaster but through it all I am grateful.  Grateful to spend time with my mom, grateful for the opportunity to finally have our own place to stay, happy that I feel I am doing something to achieve my goals when I went back to school and overjoyed by the fact that after a long and tiring day, i'll find peace in the arms of my family.

I guess, that's life!

Another Day

I know...it's been awhile.  I guess I got caught up with work and vacation preparations.  Yeeessss!  The family went on vacation last March and we really had a great time.  We went to HongKong, Manila, Cebu, Dumaguete, Bohol and La Union.  Awesome!

Oh, it's Mother's Day today.  It's our day.  HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all moms out there.

My Gratitude List (25/12/2015)

It's Christmas day!!!

Aside from celebrating the birth of our savior, this day is also a celebration of togetherness with our loved ones.  It is the best day to spend time with them and show them that they are remembered this season of gift giving.

I am thankful for the chance to spend quality time with my family.  Chris has been planning of taking Kenzi and me to a movie date.  This made me excited all week.  We went out to watch Star Wars.  The kid was not excited to watch the movie but she got hype on the idea of going to the cinema and eat her fave nachos (on her own words, "the chips I dip in cheese").

I can't help to watch in awe these two people sitting beside me.  The kid giggling, chanting "Go Chewie! Go Chewie! (that's Chewbacca) and the Dad who's overjoyed by how the kid is enjoying it.  At that moment I knew, I got the best Christmas gift anyone can get.

My Gratitude List (22/12/2015)

I had so many things to be thankful for and I have been planning to write about it promptly but you know how life goes...so here it is.

I am thankful for the time when Kenzi asked me for AED10.  It was early morning then, we were preparing to go to work and the kids to school.  She suddenly remembered that someone went to their school and offered them a "magic book."  She said she wanted to have one.  I saw how amazed she was by that thing, so I gave her the money.  The kid said, "thank you Mommy, for the ten dirhams."  The facial expression and the way she said it melted my heart.  AED10 was nothing my child, to the amount of happiness you made me feel that day.

One night when Chris and I was going home and we were in the cab, I asked him what Christmas gift he wants.  He said he cannot think of anything.  I told him, he has everything that's why he cannot think of anything to ask.  Then he said, "Yes, I got you and Kenzi."  You gave me the butterflies there and a little laugh, coz I was really pertaining to material stuff when I said that.  Nevertheless, it was the best way to end the night.

This happened a year ago but it is one of my happy memories and I really want to remember and share it.  We were all cramped in the car from having dinner in the park.  I came there straight from work, so I was really tired.  I leaned my head on the back of the front seat and Kenzi upon seeing me put pillows on my back and said I can lean on it because she knows I am really tired.  You're such a small kid and yet you have a big heart to care and think of others.  I am so proud of you.

On December 17, 2015, Chris and I had the chance to go out alone because the Little Girl has party to go to...in a hotel...and to a party which she invited herself.  Hahaha!  So, the Daddy went with me in the bookstore I found in Hamdan where they are selling used books.  My good buys are below:

I know the books made me sooooo excited and happy but it is not the reason why I am writing it on this list.  It was the contentment of walking side by side with Chris in Hamdan.  The feel of the cold breeze of December night combined with the warmth of his hands into mine.  It was the best feeling in the world and this is one of those days that I'll come back to whenever I am down and sad.

The Story of our Little Joey

October 08, 2015...we were overwhelmed with so much joy when we found out that I am pregnant with our third child.

November 04, 2015...in the afternoon I had spotting.  We then rushed to the hospital to have my condition checked.  The ultrasound confirmed that the Baby doesn't have heartbeat and is smaller for the Baby's age.  The doctor said that I am experiencing threatened abortion.  We were given an option to either wait for the Baby to come out naturally or choose for D and C operation.

As I was laying down there, in the doctor's room and her explaining the unhealthy pregnancy and tears streaming down my face, all I could think of was "Dear God, not again please."  And for someone who had been there, I kept my hopes high.  I searched the Internet and found out that sometimes these findings can be mistaken due to miscalculation of conception date.  I can opt to wait for another week and ask for a second opinion.

Apparently, the next day the bleeding worsen and it was accompanied by pain.  I then went again to the hospital and had a second ultrasound.  The doctor said the bleeding and pain will get worse and there's really nothing we can do.

At 8 weeks and 6 days, we lost our third child.

It hurts as much as the first but it is what it is. Life goes on and trust God's plans. No questions asked, no finding reasons it is just how it's suppose to be.

In this entire ordeal, it just amazes me how God weaves his plans for us. Even in this trying times I know that He will get me through it.  First off, God secured us financially. My insurance was without maternity for the longest time. I was able to complete the documents to update it two days before the unfortunate event happened.  It could have happened earlier than that but it did not.  God put wonderful people in my life to support and encourage me. Family and friends who never fail to let me know that they're there to support and pray for me. A strong husband who I can lean on and took charge of everything while I am feeling down myself. A bubbly daughter who cheers me up everyday. Most especially God's promise that his unfailing love never forgets.

Your story, our little Joey may have ended too soon but the memories will always remain. I'll never forget how you put that big smile on your Dad's face. I'll remember how you got me excited to be pregnant again, just like it's the first time. I'll remember how your big sister really got hyped of finally having a Baby sister/brother.  I'll remember...always and forever!

My Gratitude List (17/11/2015)

I'm a little bit down when I arrived to work this morning but a colleague of mine surprised me with this book.  Never expected but really lifted my spirits up.  Thanks Ms. Thet!

Trust a book to bring sunshine on my rainy days.

My Gratitude List (09/11/2015)

I'm thankful for a chance to be home when Kenzi arrived from school. It was my first yesterday. She was soooo hyper. She did not realize I was home and when I called her, she and Valene came running to me and screaming my name. It was a joy to experience.  She immediately told me what she learned in school.

So, this is what I have been missing because I am a working mom.  Still grateful for the experience.

It's Good to be Tested

What if the foundation of marriage you have been fighting and caring for is being tested? Will you crumble and fall? Or continue to fight?

It has been a challenging few weeks for me.  My marriage was tested in a way I have never imagined it would be.  Someone came.

I told my husband about it.  I told him someone said he likes my smile.  Someone is calling just to say good morning but I refused to fall.  My husband understands.  He never questioned, he never doubted and most of all he never acted jealous and overprotective.  He knows he can trust me to handle it.

In those few days of indecisiveness, he did not know I struggled.  I struggled to say no maybe because when things get as mundane as it can get, it is easy to find excitement in someone else.  When you question your husband why he doesn't hold hands with you anymore, I guess it was easy to find it with someone who's willing to give the time of their day to call and see you.  When your husband never said your beautiful, your kind and that he appreciates you, I guess it's easy to fall for someone who does.  I forgot how it feels to be special, but then again, these things can never be the reason to hurt the man you love for the rest of your life.

What made me said no?

It's the thought of growing old with my husband....the thought that we will retire in a small house, with our hair all white, our skin all wrinkled and our thoughts muddled by age but we're still together.  We're still holding hands and pestering each other because I love him.  For me it was not a choice I have to make, it was destined to happen.

There is good in what happened because it rekindled feelings, emotions that has always been there and never should have been forgotten.

When I look at him, I say:

He is the man who wakes up with me in the middle of the night just to hold my hand because I want to cry for our lost child.

He is the man who hide weakness when I feel so weak battling our struggles in life.

He is the man who goes with me in the loo in the middle of the night because I am too damn scared to be alone.

He is the man who listens.

The man who brushes tears from my face every time I am fed up.

He is the man who wrestles life to keep the family together and happier.

He is the man who eats half of my food because I don't want to get fat.

He is the man who took upon himself to be the official photographer when I am out with my friends.

He is the man who makes me laugh and understands my craziness.

He is THE man.

I have never been so sure in my life that you are my soulmate...the hand that perfectly fits mine...the missing piece of the puzzle.  I'll just have to always remember that...

YOU ARE MY MAN.

My Gratitude List (21/08/2015)

Waking up beside my two most important people in the world and realizing how lucky I am to have them in my life.

They are all I've got and I'll do everything I can to keep the family stronger and together.

Not any thorns and most definitely not any pretty face can ruin what we have right now.

My Gratitude List (15/08/2015)

I am thankful for the cup noodles and bread my husband prepared for me before going to work.

My Gratitude List (13/08/2015)

I am thankful for alone time with Chris. We went out to try a new resto, a newly opened Asian Inasal in Hamdan which was recommended by Elizabeth.  The place was ok and the food was great especially the inasal and spaghetti.  The best time of the day is the bus ride going to Carrefour.  We normally do this back in the Philippines. Traveling from QC to Laguna.  I'm a little bit nostalgic at that.

I am thankful for our Little Girl's funny moments. Chris said the kid told him that when she grow up, she will drive her Daddy and me. I'll sit in the front and Daddy will sit at the back together with Lolo Fanny and Wowa. Now, this made me happy because I thought for the first time she finally choses me over her Daddy. But then she explained that she wants her Daddy to be comfortable so she wants him in the back. This made me laugh so hard. Some things never change.

I am thankful for this loofa being available in Carrefour.

I have been looking for this for over a month now. This is definitely the highlight of our grocery shopping. I quickly took a bath when I arrived home.

Thankful for "love love time" with Chris and Kenzi. It's our new term for just being silly together and giving lots of kisses and hugs.

Random Thoughts

Ever had that moment with your other half where you just spontaneously laugh at about anything?

Every small talk, make face or even a snide remark will make the two of you burst into laughter?!

And then while on the bus to work, the memory makes you laugh and it is freaking insane!!!

And even if you are having a shitty day in the office you would steal a few minutes to come back to that moment to make you feel better?!

I did....I still do...and I'd like to have more of those.

A Day in the Life of a Working Mom

Working in Abu Dhabi has been challenging for me.  For one, the working hours here is longer than that in the Philippines.  Our timing is from 8am - 5pm Sundays to Wednesdays and 8am-2pm on Thursdays that leaves us with one full day off every Friday.  It took me awhile to adapt to these changes, it was exasperating not to mention the line of business I am currently working in.

It was a challenge juggling work and mom duties especially when Kenzi started schooling.  I find it hard to tutor her in the evening since we can start around 8pm to 9pm where the kid is already tired from the days learning and play.  She goes to bed before 10pm and sometimes I have to stay up late preparing her homework or things to bring for tomorrow's class.  Thinking how little time I spend with her makes me sad.

At first, I thought I was doing an okay job spending time with her.  I make a point to bring her to malls or parks every other Thursday with just her, me and her Dad.  After attending service every Friday morning, I make sure that she is always by my side.  But a comment from her last night, made me think otherwise.

Before going to sleep I asked her if I am good to her.  The kid thinks for awhile and sheepishly said "No."  I asked her why and she said, "Sometimes you don't listen to me." I was astounded by her answer since I know her, she is the type of kid who doesn't want to  hurt anyone's feelings let alone her parents.  I can see from the look on her face she was contemplating whether to tell me or not.

The realization hit me hard.  I was trying so hard to be there physically when the Little Girl only needs my few minutes to listen to her.  She doesn't complain about me being gone away most of the time, she doesn't complain when I can't always be there to give her a bath, cut her nails or sit by her side, she just wants me to actually "LISTEN".

I am disappointed and ashamed of myself but I'm glad she told me.  I can never be a perfect mom but I can be better.  If again the day comes that I feel too tired, too upset about something or too engrossed with my "me time" that I cannot spare her my attention i'll come back to that night and remind my self that it is you, Kenzi matters most to me.

Unusual Grape

Nikki said I should blog about this unusual pumpkin like grape we saw earlier.

It made me laugh, not the unusual grape but her idea of me blogging this. 😉. Who am I to deprive her of that. So here it is...my entry for "The Unusual Grape."

I teased her that I'll blog all the weird things I have seen and it is more likely she will find her pic on it. 😛

It's Father's Day

It's Father's Day, 21/06/2015. We got you new Vans shoes but the kid really wants to buy you a new laptop. That made you smile. Afternoon, Nikki wants us to watch Jurassic World and I was so tired I don't want to go. For the first time, I saw you sad, maybe because it's the first time I'm not going with you or maybe because it's Father's Day. Whatever the reason, I felt the sadness but I'm glad I went with you, because I saw your smile looking at our kid while she sat beside you in the movie house. Eventhough the movie sucks because I was thinking the entire time how the female lead actress keeps on running with high heels, I am still glad I went because I saw your happiness that finally our Little Girl is your new movie buddy. I would not exchange that for anything else.

The Little Girl is Growing Up

"They grow up so fast."

A cliché all parents hear about their kids and yes it is true.  Our little girl, Kenzi is not as little as she used to be and we just want to enjoy every bit of her growing up.

So, she used to be our bulinggitoy baby girl:

See, she seems happy getting home.

Now, she's an adorable Chubby Princess:

Yup, everyone is wrong, Snow White loooooves chocolate cakes and not Apples.

And then, she used to bath like this:

But now…this:

She fits anywhere:

But now, she barely fits her stroller:

Hi there, cousin Valene!

She used to be put on the shopping cart:

But now, she put things in the shopping cart:

She drives by herself:

Now, she's cool having company:

She's modeling at home:

Now, she prefers at a party:

She looks so small standing in front of the TV:

Now, not so small at all:

She had a strange way of style:

And then she grew up to be a fashionista:

I could go on forever on this, but I guess what I really wanted to say is:  I don't want these moments to pass without even realizing how important and special they really are.  I cherish every moment with you my dear child.

I'll Blog Again

That's what I said four months ago.  I even took a note on my handy notebook, but for the life of me, I cannot bring myself to open my blog.  Then for some unknown driving force, I reopened my blog, retrieved my long forgotten password and carefully wrote these sentences for my comeback post.

Boy, that was hard.  I was just staring on a blank page for quite awhile.  Not knowing what to say. Contemplating what kickass comeback post should I write.  I wrote some ideas but I am saving them for our first year here in Abu Dhabi.

Yes!  The family migrated to UAE.  A lot had happened.  It was a wonderful journey and at the same time a hard one, but I am saving these stories for my later post.

Du-Deee-Dum-Dee-Dum...nothing much to say but......laters!

You and me Together

People ask how long Chris and I are together...I'd like to say I don't know for it seems to be forever. It may be as "cheesy" as it sounds but that is how I feel. Life turned 180 degrees when I met him and until now I am loving the change.

On this day I wanna go back to all the "best" and "most" times of our lives together.

Best Surprise from him
A C and E stuff toy from McDonalds. It's a free toy from their Happy Meal. What made it sooo special is I remembered asking him once for it but it was not in a way that I super like it and I never thought he had taken it seriously.

Best Surprise from me
Texting him that I am pregnant with our first child. I can truly feel he was so happy at that time. He doesn't even want me to retake the PT, baka kasi bawiin pa raw. He is not a "praning" person but during that time he's really extra concern with my safety.

Biggest Fight ever
We never really fight, we have our shortcomings but we learned to deal with it. Our biggest fight?! Well it's about him not wanting to buy the phone I want. Dinner time, we're not talking and I was really crying and I told him I hate him and he said "I hate you too" in reply. I guess I won the fight...yeah! I have my ways. "Wink"

Best Lakad ever
Watching the Ginebra game live in Araneta Coliseum. I'm five months pregnant and gee that didn't stop us. Although Ginebra didn't win, I am still glad I watched it.

Best Moment
PBA finals 2011 Ginebra vs Talk and Text
TnT leads 3-2 the game was really close...It came to an overtime. Ginebra had a chance and Chris and I was like in a prayer meeting, holding hands and praying ( I was praying di ko lang alam kay Chris ) for Ginebra to win. As we all know they didn't, but it was a moment for me to comfort him. He was really really sad, I swear. It's like he bet all his money to a gamble and didn't win.

My Most Embarassing Moment
Although there's none since we've been together for a long time but I guess this will be considered embarassing if we're just "bf and gf." He was teaching me how to drink...alcoholic drinks that is...disclaimer just in case my parents read this, I insisted! So, he finally agreed in helping me, and I didn't know I should not take it as if it is just some kind of soda. Shame on me, it made me blackout! I'm still awake but I can't see a damn thing ( my eyes are open btw ) and next thing I knew I was shouting in our bathroom.

His Most Embarassing Moment
He said not to tell anyone about this and to create a happy and peaceful married life, I am not telling. I am giving you a hint, we arrived at home from a whole day window shopping in MOA, he had his shocking revelation. I was really contemplating whether this is the most embarassing or the one in Pagudpod. What you think?

Best Thing that we do together
There are so many things that we do together but I must say the best is when we watch movies. After each movie we talked how we feel about it but not in a "class discussion way of talking." There was a time when the movie is really good we started clapping after it ended. Too bad I can't remember what movie it was.

It's so nice to reminisce, but the only thing I want to say is that HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! I've said this once but I am saying it again, you are the best thing ever happened to me. You made me realize many things and made a meaningful direction in my life. You're my husband and my "bestest" friend and it will always remain that way. I luv u so much!



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His N Hers

I was rummaging through our stuff when I realize the things Chris and I have are always the same, it's like buying stuff for twins.

His and hers PSP - obviously mine is pink. We use it to play Monster Hunter together. He said I can help him finish missions faster.

His cup of coffee and my cup of pineapple juice.

His black Jansport bag and hers blue. Very helpful when traveling.

His phone and hers pink phone.

Kimy Banana Ice Cream

I wanted to taste Kimy Banana ice cream since I watched it's commercial. I've never even thought it would be possible to actually peel the yellow thingy, turned out to be a jelly, but it was. I'm skeptical about this, you know how commercials are really far from the truth when you see the product.

So, one grocery day I remember buying one. To my huge surprise it never failed me. It was actually fun peeling the jelly and it was twice the fun eating the white banana ice cream. I hope they have this banana flavoured ice cream, I can eat half a gallon by myself.

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Additional applications

I have added three more application for my phone.





Baby Journal - a good way of keeping memories of Kenzi's childhood. I already wrote an entry of her "first" things. Good thing I can add pictures. A nice application for all Mommies out there.





A "feel good" journal. It will make you think of all the blessing you have received everyday. It will make you realize how lucky you are. The application helped me realize that each day there are small and big blessings to be thankful for.





Memorable Meals - nice application for those who love to eat out with friends and families. It's a fun way of keeping track of all the restaurant you've been to and the people you're with.

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Lomo Lomo and Pocketbooth

Two applications I have installed recently. Thanks to may friend Marie for introducing Lomo Lomo to me. I know iPhone camera is not as good as Sony's but with Lomo Lomo it gives more drama on my pics. It looks like the pic was taken by a pro. Plus, I don't have to Photoshop it. Really neat! Here are some pics I have taken using this application.












Just this morning I stumbled into Pocketbooth. I installed it and toom pictures of Baby Kenzi. Soooo, nice!





I love it! I can't wait to use this to take pictures of my friends. Before I end this blog let me leave you another Pocketbooth pic.




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So happy I found this application, it makes my blogging easier and faster. I've always wanted to update my blog diligently, but as work and responsibilities get in my way, I am having a hard time doing so. Whoever made this application...ur a genius!


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A Lot of Catching Up to Do

And so I am back....

A lot of things have happened...birth of Baby Kenzi......new job........busy weekends and I really don't know where to start.

Last November 12, 2010 my Kenzi Beauty was born through cesarean section. I hope I can put into words the overwhelming happiness I've felt when I first saw her. Cute little face, cute little hands and that first cry?! I sooo love to hear my Baby cry, for it is an assurance that she is alive.

I can still remember the first time I held her in my arms and the first time I breastfed her. Even now, when I look at her I can't believe how lucky and blessed I am to have her in my life. Healing has been faster now that she is here. I love Baby Kenzi to bits!

New job...new account...same old company...new friends...and some old ones! I've handled ISP account for several years and this will be a whole new experience for me.


Training has always been fun, but I must say Toshiba training is the best and the most fun learning experience I ever had. The trainer and my wave mates is as crazy as me. I can't even think of a dull moment when I was with them...maybe during exams...hehehe!

Daddy's here from Jamaica

I can't still believe Chris is here. I wish I could describe the feeling of seeing him again after six weeks of being apart. I saw him cross the street to where we are waiting, and I was just smiling like crazy, staring at him, looking like a starstruck fan until he got near me. I was just looking at him and not moving...hahaha! Until he motioned me to come to him.

I can still remember the misadventures we had during his departure. I was crying already on our way to the airport and when we got there I can't contain the feeling of sadness that I burst out crying like a baby.....only to find out that we have to fetch him again because he was on the wrong terminal. It was so hilarious that I forgot for a while that I will be missing him for six weeks. When we finally drop him off to the right terminal, emotions were overcame by the fact that he is running late. Just a quick goodbye and we send him off immediately. Up until now we still laugh about this. The loneliness sank in when I went home all alone. Suddenly our house doesn't feel like a home anymore. Yes, we talk everyday...but still a big chunk of my life was missing. It was like the song "I left my heart in San Francisco"...only mine has a different tune "I send my heart in Jamaica."

But he's here already...the feeling was so surreal. I can't help staring at him, hugging him for a very long time and talking to him like I've never talked to him in ages. I am just sooooo happy! I keep on thanking the Lord above for keeping him safe always. Thankful for such a wonderful blessing!