Got to talk to him...b

Finally, I was able to talk to him....I can't really say the problem was solved or questions are answered...but I can't argue with him. The last thing he needs right now is a whining girlfriend. Its hard to understand the situation we're in right now, its even harder to understand someone who never explains. But I understand him, I care for him and I don't want to see him this way. He doesn't know that it hurts me to hear or see him give up. He wants to end his life and all that crap. He's being selfish....he doesn't know there are people who cares for him and will be miserable if he will be gone.

Keeping myself busy...

Just got home, spent the rest of the afternoon with my two girlfriends, Missy and Jhongke. We ate, talk, stroll, talk...and more talk...hehehe! I want to get home tired so as not to think of anything before going to bed. Still no word from him. Well, it piss me off because I do not know where and what is happening with him. I need to ask his friends...they know more...hmmmmp! When I say i'm damned worried about him, I mean it...I don't say things because I have to or it sounds good...i'm not putting up a show just to please him. Hayyyy...

Anyways, just bought six books for only Php120. Wow! That's from booksale. I'm almost done reading John Grisham's The Partner. Can't put it down. I think he is a great author. I really could not imagine what will happen to the main characters. So many surprises...I thought the male lead character was bad turned out that there are more villains in the story. Got to start my book journal....

By the way, I watched Cars last Monday. It was a nice film with moral lessons...Cried actually, when Lightning McQueen went back for that (sorry, forgot his name) old racer, when the victory is just an inch away. Proves that winning isn't everything. Quote from the movie "Its just an empty cup." There are a lot of things important than that, friendship, keeping your values intact and of course the relationship you have with people that are important to you.

Still, cannot sleep. I'm not yet tired.

Something to do...

I miss my Chumyness sooo much...we're supposed to meet last Sunday but he never came. Honestly, im not angry, infact i'm more worried..I know him as a person who never miss his commitments. Especially, he knows I will be waiting for him. Apart from that, I was also hurt by the fact that he never even tried to inform me why...well, I know he has his own reasons...that reason better be good...or else...wahahaha...just kidding. Well. just missing and worried about him.

Well, today. i'm kinda thinking of making a book journal...before I had a movie journal, but I watched so many movies a week so I stopped it...

Book journal must be great...well, got to start one. I'm currently reading John Grisham's The Partner and The Rainmaker. My friend promised to lend me The Firm book. I read his A Time to Kill book and it was great...cried reading that book. Not yet done with Robert Jordan's series though...it could wait. I miss reading my fave author's books, Sidney Sheldon.

I miss him sooo much...

Finally, Chumyness and I got the chance to go out...since I was hospitalize and he was out of town for awhile. I just miss him so much....ang saya. Kahit na nagtampo talaga ako sa kanya...sobra....pero ganun talaga...I see that he is making up for it What is important, we are still together....