Happy Thoughts

I think I dwell so much on sad happenings in my life, so I thought of things that made me smile when I think of them:

First, Ginebra won last Wednesday so there will still be another game later. Helterbrand and Caguioa played after a very long time of rest because of injury, it's the time of my life...hehehe! The Fast and the Furious...so nice. Supposedly, my husband and I will watch the game later in Araneta, but because of a petty fight we are cancelling it. Oh well, if they lose later no more game for Ginebra this season. But I am hoping they'll win.


Second, Amazing Race will be back. Hooray! It will be on February 15. Another show to look forward to.

Third, I am now starting to watch American Idol again. Weet-weet! It will be exciting since they have a new judge to join them.

Fourth, I keep on watching Melason in PBB Double Up. They make me laugh...like the laugh that I do when I'm with my sisters.

Well, that's all I can think of right now. Isn't it pathetic? I get happiness from these shows. Well, it's only me, my computer and our TV here, what should I expect. My husband isn't talking to me yet. Doesn't care...well, not that I don't really care but ...ammm....welll....it doesn't bother me anymore as much as it does before.

Thanks Nightshade for the picture.

Feeling Alone

I have always been blessed with a wonderful family, friends and a husband. But why is it sometimes I still feel so alone.

I am in the dark with my sleeping husband beside me while I am writing this. It's almost midnight and I can't bring myself to sleep. If I try, I will only end up crying.

It has always been this way for several days now. I feel so lonely, so sad and I don't know why. It feels like something is missing in my life, but I just could not figure what it is.

It has been a month now since I quit my job. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, I get paid well and I love going to work. I have to resign because I will be studying in London. It was scheduled last month, unfortunately something went wrong and I have to transfer school. As of the moment, I am waiting for my acceptance letter from the new school. For how long I have to wait, I don't know. Maybe weeks, months...I honestly don't know. I asked my husband if I should get a job...I know getting another job will not be hard since I am experienced already in my chosen field. He said it would be best to just stay at home. I don't know what I am going to do with my life. Although I do all the household chores, I still feel that I am not doing anything worthwhile.

Thanks Ning Chai for the picture.