Rant of an Emotional Mom

It was one of those afternoon calls I make to my Little Girl to chit-chat on her day at school.  I was eager to make this one because she just attended her school's Christmas party.  However, I was troubled when my upbeat "How's your day?" was answered with a dejected "It was fine."

Then I found out she cried during the party because the kid who picked her name wasn't able to make it. At this point, my heart ached for her but it shattered to pieces when I saw pictures of kids opening their gifts. Imagine this, 30 or so kids opening their gifts, shrieking with laughter upon seeing their newly gotten possession, running around wildy to show it off to their friends and there in one corner of the room, there's your Little Girl with nothing on her hands, feeling left out with the chaos going on around her.  (That may be an exaggeration on some parts but I'm a mom and she's just six who happens to be as emotional as I am.)

Yes, the teacher gave her lots of prizes upon knowing she cried (I am grateful for that). Yes, she will receive the gift come January (which I don't wish to receive anymore). But that moment of being left out?!?! It will never be undone.

Anyhow, those events did not inspire me to write this but today's events did.  It was our company's Christmas party earlier and of course I participated on the exchange gift activity. We had this wishlist and I listed Shopkins for my Little Girl.  Now, I don't want to pretend do be an all out selfless mom here because truth be told, I wished for an eyebrow pencil first. 😂😂😂

So, I changed it and I'm so glad I did. When all gifts were distributed we were asked to open our gifts at the same time. And there, while watching my Little Girl opening my gift,  I felt that she finally got her moment.  I was overwhelmed on how happy she was, how she keeps on telling me she really had a great time and she's so glad that I tagged her along.

Like i've said, what happened on her school's party cannot be undone but I hoped it will be replaced with good memories such as this one.

Thank you Dhors for giving what I have written on my wishlist. Thank you Lea for buying an extra gift for Kenzi. Thank you guys!😘

As for my Little Girl, I hope the experience makes you tough. It saddens me I can't protect you from all the pain in this world but know my child I'll be here to make your world a little bit better.

As for walking I-don't-care-piece-of-sh*t-pretending-to-be-human-beings out there...I hope my children will never cross paths with your kind.

My Gratitude List (11/07/2016)

I found this quote yesterday and immediately shared it.  It hits right on on how I really feel about being a mom.  Especially now that the kid is getting bigger, she has this charisma, this wackiness and blissfulness that never fails to amaze me everyday.

Three weeks ago, I tag her along with me on a book sale.  I gathered books that she might like and asked her to select books she wanted me to buy.  The shopkeeper was laughing on how she did the selection.  I can't even believe how weird and crazy she can get coz she opted to smell each books to know which to bring home.

The other day, she was telling her cousin while in the shower that her dad will lock the fridge if she gets really, really fat.  She says this in such seriousness.  She even told her that it will only be unlocked if she becomes thinner.  It really cracked me up.

Now, she has this habit of giving us names.  She now calls me her Little Butterfly, her Dad is her Little Papay and she wants us to call her Knot-knot.  I knowwww...crazy right?

Life, Oh Life

It has been a tiring month for me.  A lot has been happening lately.  My mom is here in Abu Dhabi, the family now has it's own crib, I am back to studying plus everyday tasks that keeps me occupied.

There are moments when you just want to pause for awhile and not think of anything.  My head is in a mess and my emotion's a roller coaster but through it all I am grateful.  Grateful to spend time with my mom, grateful for the opportunity to finally have our own place to stay, happy that I feel I am doing something to achieve my goals when I went back to school and overjoyed by the fact that after a long and tiring day, i'll find peace in the arms of my family.

I guess, that's life!

Another Day

I know...it's been awhile.  I guess I got caught up with work and vacation preparations.  Yeeessss!  The family went on vacation last March and we really had a great time.  We went to HongKong, Manila, Cebu, Dumaguete, Bohol and La Union.  Awesome!

Oh, it's Mother's Day today.  It's our day.  HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all moms out there.