Chinese Eye Test

I got this from my college friend. I think its brilliant! Try to look at the image.


Can't understand the image? Try pulling the corner of your eyes as if you were Chinese.
Got the message?! Hehehe!

Haircuts

Your hair and face change as you get older. And so should your cut. Finding the right cut and color can give a huge boost to your overall appearance. Well, at least we think so ... what do you think?

Break-up and Learn

In every break-up, there's always a lesson learned.

I am Number 899 on the Million Blog List

Got this from Jhongke;

It is a list of million bloggers here in the Philippines. Just go to this website Million Blog List and post the link of your blog there.

I'm Five Months Pregnant

I have not visited my blog lately since I was away from home for a couple of days. I stayed in my office since it is most convenient for me, no need to transpo, aircon, less noise and I don't have to endure the heat every noon. I am 20 weeks and two days pregnant today. Basically, its already five months. I can now feel fetal movement. The first time I felt it, I almost cried. It is an affirmation that I really have a new life growing inside me. It is an overwhelming experience, more than a positive pregnancy test or the sound of the fetal heartbeat. The movement is not that strong yet to be felt outside but significant enough for me to know that it was really our Baby moving. The feeling is better now compared to the first trimester of pregnancy. Although i'm getting a lot of backaches and leg cramps, it is still tolerable and avoidable.


Aside from the monthly visit to my OB, I also get a lot of help from the book What to Expect When You're Expecting by Heidi Murkoff, Arlene Eisenberg and Sandee Hathaway. It has a lot of information that you can never get from your doctor alone, questions you never thought should be asked but you'll get answers from the book and also what you should expect and what to do during pregnancy. I recommend this book to all of the mothers-to-be.

What Color Flower are You?

Got this from Jhongke:

You Are a Purple Flower

A purple flower tends to represent success, grace, and elegance. At times, you are faithful like a violet. And other times, you represent luxury, like a wisteria. And more than you wish, you find yourself heartbroken like a lilac.

What Color Flower Are You?

My Personality

Got this from Simply the Best:

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. - Yehboy! My friends tell me so! Coz they're my friends. Hehehe! Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. - I love rules...hehehe! You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. - Dominant?! Lagot ka Chris! Natural leader...kinda! You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. - Like I said I love rules...yum, yum! Morals, ofcourse, raised by the kind of parents that I have...no doubt! A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. - Of course, golf course! Especially when I really want something. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. - Toink! They can't even talk to me when i'm serious. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. - Carefully?! Slowly?! At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. - Yehboy! With others, you tend to be polite and formal. - That's so true. I almost call them all my "Ate" and "Kuya" even if they are younger than me...feeling "bata." As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. - I don't even wash my face...hahaha! On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! - Yep! I keep my bed organize...hehehe!

The Three Question Personality Test

Relationships...Gotta Have Them?!

Feed Me UP

Thanks Jhongke!

* You can get more web traffic.
* You can increase your blogs’ Technorati authority.
* You can increase your blogs’ feed subscribers.
* You can get more back links.
* You can gain more friends around the world.

Here are the Rules:

Copy the list below.

Place your Blog’s FEED Link (i.e. You blog’s link for its RSS/Atom feed, not the actual site) after the list. If you have more than 1 blog, feel free to add them all here!

After placing your blog’s feed address/es, you must tag 5 or more bloggers.

Also, you must include that is not yet in the list, this is to keep the ball rolling.

Subscribe to the feed of the blog who tagged you. You may include subscribing to another blog of your choice from the list.

1. Kenneth - A Stellar Life2. filipinolifeabroad3. Tina4. Dabawenyang Iska5. Bestfriend’s blog6. PinayLoveStories7. Allen’s wifey8. allen’s darling9. allen’s sweetheart10. filipinolifeabroad11. Sweet temptation12. In the life of..Mine13. Mommy Joy of two14. Pinay Mommy Online15. Pinay Mommy’s DigiScrap16. Online Biz and Resources17. DeCaFFeiNaTeD18. BaReFooTeD Me19. Euroangel’s Complicated World20. Precious Diamond21. My Personal Journal22. My Euro Travel and Adventure23. My Daily Nourishment24. Euroangel Graffiti25. The World Wide Web Addict26. Simply The Best27. My Beautiful Life28. Mind Bubbles 29. My Precious 30. Princess Bela 31. Our Journey to Life 32. My Planet Purple 33. Something Purple 34. A Detour35. Alpha’s Blog36. Because Life Is Fun37. Mommy Talks and Wife Stories. 38. Aggie Shoots. Aggie Scraps. 39. Pink and Brown Diaries 40. Winding Creek Circle. 41. My Money Diet 42. Journey to Wellness. 43. Pinay Nars. 44. I am Dzoi 45. My Happy Place 46. To the Moon and Back 47. Jhong 48. Edabelle 49. Insert your blog

Children Question Number 1

Copy here:
1. Answer the Kid’s Question by Gregory Stock, PH.D.
Remember: Don’t respond as you think others want you to.
Respond the way you actually feel!

2. Add your name (linked to your blog)
3. Tag everybody else!





Kid’s Question #1

If you were the ruler of the world and you could have anything you wanted
as well as have people do anything you wanted,
do you think you would get greedy and mean
or would you be a good and fair ruler?

~
My gosh! So many things to do that is running in my mind right now. Hehehe! I'll have the wedding of the year, i'll buy shoes, clothes, gadgets and of course I will also buy things for my family and friends. I'll go to different places, perhaps visit Mickey Mouse, my fave. I'll enroll my child abroad and i'll go there every week. I'll give my parents a mansion and my two brothers all the things they need. I'll have my own school, studio dance and own network company. Maybe Channel 12...coz I love that number. Did you say I have to rule the world?! I'll leave all the work to my husband...he can do it! Hehehe!


Jhong, Edabelle add your link here

What Edabelle Means

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

My Birthday and Chris Birthday

I got this from Jhongke.

This is my birthday.

Your Birthdate: December 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

This is Chris birthday.

Your Birthdate: September 1 You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet.
You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily.
Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail.
You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.

Your strength: Your supreme genius

Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity

Your power color: Gold

Your power symbol: Star

Your power month: January

If you want to know the meaning of your birthday, just click here.

My Own Blog Badge

My Sis, Jhongke created a cool Blog Badge for me. I really like it so much. Pink and black, just like my Friendster account background. Thank you, Sis! Lab yah!

Here's the badge:

Love Visual DNA

This is a cute tag from Jhongke. The results are so true. Click on the picture to read the result.
Copy here:
1. Take the test - Love Visual DNA.
2. Post your result by adding your name (linked to your blog),
your loved type (linked to your Love DNA result).
3. Tag everybody else!

Results: 1. Aggie - Warm and Fuzzy 2. Thea - Warm and Fuzzy 3. Something Purple - Warm and Fuzzy 4. A Detour - Warm and Fuzzy 5. Princess Vien - Wistful Soul 6. Tet - Wistful Soul 7. Chat - Warm and Fuzzy 8. Jhong- Love Magnet 9. Eda - Warm and Fuzzy

Here are the results:

Cute Tag

I got this from Lemonade. She has a great site and all her post are fun to read. Anyways, I like this tag, I think it is very interesting.

Here are the rules for this tag:
1. Put your iPod (or other source of music) on shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what. No cheating!

"If someone says 'Is this okay?', you say?"
Cold, Cold Heart - Norah Jones


"What would best describe your personality?"
Feelin' the Same Way - Norah Jones


"What do you like in a guy/girl?"
Painter Song - Norah Jones


"How do you feel today?"
Bakit - Rachel Ann Go

- I'm not texting my husband for almost two days now..."Bakit hanap-hanap kita, bakit hindi nagsasawa?" Yeh!

"What is your life's purpose?"
The Nearness of You - Norah Jones

"What is your motto?"
The Lonely Day is Over - Norah Jones

"What do your friends think of you?"
Seven Year - Norah Jones

"What do you think of your parents?"
Shoot the Moon - Norah Jones

"What do you think about very often?"
Clumsy - Fergie

"What is 2+2?"
Don't know Why - Norah Jonesh

"What do you think of your best friend?"
Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

"What do you think of the person you like?"
Lonestars - Norah Jones

"What is your life story?"
Here I am Again - Rachel Ann Go

"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
I'll Be Alright - Sarah Geronimo

"What do you think when you see the person you like?"
Felt So Right - Sarah Geronimo

"What do your parents think of you?"
One Flight Down - Norah Jones

"What will you dance to at your wedding?"
Turn Me On - Norah Jones

"What will they play at your funeral?"
Alam ng ating mga Puso - Rachel Ann Go

"What is your hobby/interest?"
I've Got to See You - Norah Jones

Hahaha! So addicted to my husband.

"What is your biggest secret?"
Glamorous - Fergie

"What do you think of your friends?"
Nightingale - Norah Jones

"What should you post this as?"
Bubbly - Colbie Calliat


If you're wondering why I've got lots of Norah Jones songs, well its for my Baby.

TV Shows are Back

My First Survey

PBB Teen Edition Plus

I'm watching this show and I am rooting for Rona Libby and Robi Domingo. I heard from my mom that they did a debate inside the house. I tried to find a video of that debate over the Internet to no avail. If you happen to know where to find it, please PM me or leave a comment on my blog. Thanks!

A Song for Us

My husband Chris told me to listen to this song. The title of the song is Swept Away by Christopher Cross. I like the melody and the meaning. It tells so much of how my husband and I feel for each other. Here are the lyrics of the song:


I never had anything happen so fast
I took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show 'cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everything I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart when it knows what it wants
And I never wanted anything more than to know you

I was swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way to make you feel the way that I do
I was swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away


And so it begins
This journey of love
The summer wind carries us to places all our own
The words of a look
The language of touch
The way that you want me means so much
And I never wanted anything more than to love you


Seeing my tomorrows in your eyes
I was swept away


I hope I wake up soon
I'm a victim of that crazy moon


The very first time you said my name
I knew it would never sound the same
Something about me is changed forever

If you want to hear the song, just click here.

Yes, Im Getting Married

It’s been awhile since my last post here. Reading all my past post makes me realize how time passed so fast. I can still remember making all those tear-jerking videos and posting this on my Friendster profile:

"I've got my friends, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I need someone who really sees me
Then I'll give... all the love in the world"

If you haven’t noticed that is from one of The Corrs’ famous song, All the Love in the World. Months after, what I hoped for came. It was never expected but it happened, never thought it would be this wonderful but it did. Maybe, when things are meant to happen, everything will just fall into place.

“Life takes us by surprise and orders us to move toward the unknown – even when we don’t want to and when we think we don’t need to.”

- by The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

Uncertainty was the only sure thing I have when he came. He may love me truly but he might also hurt me. He can make me whole but he can also break me. Fear is inevitable but to live with it is optional. I have to make a choice. Take the risk or play it safe. Take the chance that life is offering or wait. Seeing how happy and contented I am right now, I have no doubt, I made the correct choice.

Making the choice was easy because he made it easy for me. He is someone I wanted from the start, someone caring, honest, someone who love me dearly and someone who really sees me. I am still having a hard time putting into words how much I feel for him. Maybe that’s the reason why it took me this long to put everything into writing. All I can say is I am truly in love with this person and that is the reason why I am marrying him.

The proposal or the talk about marriage started that December night when we were together. He mentioned about wanting me to be his wife and wants to settle down this year. I have no second thoughts of making him as my husband and surprisingly I was even hoping for it from the start. A month after that, we found out that I am pregnant.

I tried to remember the feeling when I first found out. I did remember it, but I can’t explain it. I am happy, excited and at the same time scared. He also assured me that he is very much delighted by the news and he wanted it from the start. By the next month he informed my family.

This is another journey of my life, and this time I won’t be traveling it alone because aside from my family and close friends, I have my husband and our child.

This is my new home...

I've been fond of blogging since college...I have blogs on my Friendster and Multiply account. I keep both accounts updated and all the post are the same. I'm so glad Jhongke introduced me this website, its a dedicated site for blogs. I want to post all my previous blogs here and keep this site updated everyday as much as possible.

American Idol says goodbye to Ramielle Malubay

Our kababayan Ramielle Malubay did not make it in the American Idol, Top 8 Finalist. She's good but I think people got tired of waiting for her to pick a nice song that would actually show her real capabilities when it comes to singing. But she's good. I won't be watching American Idol, no contestant to root for.

I'm back...

Been busy lately...plus our Internet connection was down for awhile. Haven't done anything here on my blog. I'll post some new happenings in my life soon. But for now, i'm busy changing some things here on my site.

See yah!

Hanging out at Abi's crib

Last night we hang-out at Abi's apartment. We watched A Love Story...movie of Aga. It was nice and fun of course, with Marianne and Abi around...joking on who's who is our character on the movie. I'll not write on who is Maricel, Aga, Angelica, the nurse and the flower is...i'm here to tackle the lessons I learned from the movie.

Here are the best scene and lines from the movie:

"Hindi lahat ng masaya tama...minsan ang tama nakakasakit rin sa una pero kapag natanggap mo na, magiging masaya rin." - This is soooo true. In making decisions, it would not always depend on our happiness alone...sometimes we should take account of people aound us and if what we're doing is right.

"Ang mga babae parang halaman yan, huwag mong pipitasin kung sisirain mo lang." - It is the same as, never start a relationship when you know you wanted it to end.

"You must be the husband." - The best scene on the movie. All three of them was in the same room because Angelica was hospitalize. The three of us was astonished on how Maricel handled the situation, and later on this phrase became our winning punch line. Try this one:

Marianne on ---: "So you must be the other woman..."

Eda on being late: "You must be my Supervisor, sorry i'm late, Sir!"

Abi to her long lost boyfriend: "So, you must be my boyfriend..."

The movie basically talks about sacrificing your own happiness for the sake of doing what you think is right. For giving people, important to you, your time and love. Treating them right to keep them. And making choices, to correct things that you have done wrong while there is still time. Indeed, nothing is lost when you choose to do what is right.

So, this must be your movie!

I'm keeping up...

It has been a month now after the break up and it has been two weeks after I found out everything. I can say I am keeping up very well...there are times that I can still feel the hurt but being with my family and friends helps me a lot to mend the hurt inside.

What had happened almost crush my whole being, thankfully my values, the love of my family and friends and the things that I believed in made me whole again. I can't really say that I am totally over him, because if I am, I wouldn't be writing this blog. But feelings are aleady inconsequential now to say. I still believe on the cliche, "things happen for a reason." I know God let this happen because when he is still here by my side, I forgot to noticed poeple, people that are more worthy of my love and care. I don't see the small and big blessings God has given me. I know that this will make me a wiser and better person. And what happened made me realize the wonderful friendship I have with my bestfriend and my close friend. This made me appreciate them more.

I read this from gem_061969 blog:

"When break up comes and it's time to say goodbye, don't doubt the love just because it didn't last. There are things in life that doesn’t really last
and it doesn’t mean its not true at all. "

"Some good things are just never meant to last forever. Bless the parting and move on."

"Expect tears, sorrow, sleepless nights and pain.
As they say "it's when you hurt the worst that you love the MOST." If you are not willing to get hurt, then don’t fall in-love"

"Life is a balance. And love is both holding on and letting go. Know when to fight for your man and when to let him go. God will guide you."

"In a relationship...
What a girl needs most is love. What a guy needs
most is respect. The most important thing for a girl is her heart. For a guy its his ego."

Until now i'm not really sure if I really loved him. I've been in a lot of relatioship and "love" is a misused and over used word for me. Is it true? Or just a state of mind? How will I know I am in love? Questions that are yet to be answered...my quest for finding the real meaning of love goes on.

I may not be able to bring back what was ended but I can start a new life, without any traces of him. I can bring with me all the lessons learned and things that made me a stronger person. And when the time comes that I can let go of him completely, I know I will be truly happy.

The Best Things in Life...

These are the best things in life for me....I will keep the list updated.

1. Seeing my family together.
2. Knowing that i'm alive and kicking.
3. Realizing that no matter what my friends will always be there fo me and no matter what and no matter who, the friendship will always matter.
4. Being able to find true friends who will never let you down but sometimes they will look down but to pick you up when you hit the ground.
5. To finally finish a book you wanted to read.
6. Finding time to laugh and talk with special friends.
7. VTOs will always be the best...hehehe!
8. Ice cream every Saturday with friends.
9. Hanging around at Abi's apartment and chicka all night.
10. Receiving a message from a long lost friend...and a job you've been waiting for.

11. Picture-picturan moments with my friends.

12. Reminiscing the times you laugh so hard with friends.

13. When someone thank me fo touching their lives.

14. Finding fogiveness in my heart.

15. Falling down and able to stand up again.

16. Hearing the laughter of my friends after I crack a joke.

17. Feeling God's presence in my life.

I'll update this, i'll just read a book...Five People You Meet in Heaven.

You are forgiven...

I have fogiven you...i'm putting everything behind. It was never your fault if you woke up one day and realized that I am not the girl you like. You should not underestimated my understanding. I know you owe me big time, but then again I am not a perfect person too. I have also hurt other people.

A part of me doesn't want to accept that you were right for letting me go. I know I deserve someone better...and when I say I forgive you...I mean it.

I do things that would make me happy and I will be happy if I forgive you.

To my bestfriend...
I appreciate you told me everything...like i've said a few days ago...a part of me wants to blame you but it is not your fault that you're likeable. Kaya nga kita friend, eh! Hehehe! I am proud that nobody can ruin the friendship that we had. Feeling ko nga it became stronger after this one. Thank you for being there since day one. Lalo na nung nagkasakit ako...thank you for all the times na ipinakita mo sa akin na you care. Basta, thank you and I love you! Kaya dapat huwag ka munang umalis ng TP.

If in any way I have hurt your feelings i'm sorry. I know you're in a dilemma right now, just always remember what i told you..."The only opinion that will matter is your opinion and to those people wo truly cares about you. Maraming nagmamahal sa iyo.

To Jhongke...
Sis, you were there in times that I was really down and in pain. Thank you for pulling me up when I almost reach the ground. Thank you for making me realize my worth, for being my strength and for making me feel that I am loved by many. You made me appreciate blessings that was already given to me that made me appreciate my friends and most especially my family. More than anyone who came in my life, you made a very big difference.

I'm very happy that I could not ask for more but for us to be forever friends. Love yah, Sis!

To Missy and Elaine...
I am happy that whatever emotions i'm in nakikiramdam din kayo. I was never a fighter, I always say this to Jhongke that I am born weak. But whatever things i'm deficient, God gave me wonderful people to fill that in and also to learn from them. Thank you for always backing me up and also for making me smile when I was really down.

No words can best describe how thankful I am for this people.

I am proud of how my family raised me well. Kaya madali sa akin magpatawad dahil yun ang tinuro nila sa akin. Basta, totoo un, napatawad na kita.

An Open Letter

I hope this will be the last time that I will be writing about this relationship. A day after I made the presentation for you I found out something horrible about you...a lot of things actually. A day after I made the presentation for myself I found another thing about you. You are courting my bestfriend. A lot of emotions are within me now; that sometimes I do not know the reason why I am feeling it.

First of all, I am angry. Angry to the point that I look at you with so much disdain. To the point that I want to forget that once in my life I thought there was an "us." I'm angry because I felt I was betrayed. I trusted you so much that I believed everything you said. I don't see you as a perfect person because there's no such, but I see you as a person who would really think a million times before you act. I see you someone with wisdom and integrity.

During the relationship, I already saw the signs that it was faltering. It was not that I was blind, I saw it coming but then again I believed you when you told me that you'll tell me if you don't want this anymore. I understand you when you told me that you're just having problems with your family and work and I tried to be the person that you can rely on.

I am angry because I somehow expected you to respect me as a person. I am angry because you should have ended the relationship when you didn't want it. It would have been easier.

Ginamit mo lang ako at masakit nun nagpagamit rin ako. Remember this words?

"Magconcentrate muna ako sa work and problems ko. Maghiwalay muna tayo."

And after a week, found you courting someone, worse, kaibigan ko pa. Sa totoo lang pinagmukha mo akong tanga. Kaya ba, lumalapit ka na lang kapag kailangan, you don't talk to me anymore and worse nakipagflirt ka pa sa isa pang malapit sa akin. Is it planned? I would have understand kung sinabi mo na lang na nawala na ung feelings. It would have been better and easier. Kasi naniwala pa ako na there was something to hold on.

I won't hinder you if you'll court someone now, I won't even care if you'll get married. Pero huwag mo naman kaming patusin. Huwag kaibigan ko. She has been there since day one. Takbuhan ko siya kapag may problema ako sayo, kaibigan mo ex nya at alam nya lahat ng nangyari sa atin.Hindi kami gamit na palitan lang. And would you really think she would sacrifice our friendship to be with you? I know she's close to you but don't assume things.

Still remember this?

"Kung meron man, kung meron man, ha?! Ayoko ng on the rebound at tsaka kung kaibigan, kaibigan lang talaga."

"Dapat nung training bay pa, kaso on the rebound ka."

So ano pala ako? Pampalipas oras?! Panakip butas?!

Do you still remember what you did to my other friend nung tayo pa? I really do think you owe her an apology. I want to quote this:

"Kaya nga may word na banter, eh."

"Kung tinotoo nya, eh di sasabihin ko na joke lang."

"Minsan nga lang magpakasaya, ganito pa."

Naririnig mo bang sinasabi mo? Anong tingin mo sa aming mga babae?! Laruan?! She is my friend, not just a friend but a very, very close friend. Anong tingin mo sa mga kaibigan ko tanga-tanga?

I never asked for anything, at alam mo yan, sana napagbigyan mo man lang ako ng kahit kaunting respeto, sama mo na mga friends ko. Kaso kahit respeto para sa bakla hindi mo ako binigyan...waaaaaaaaaaaa!

The choice you make, makes you the person you are...and its really a disappointment that you chose to be a self-centered beast. Sayang...you're not half the man I thought you were.

As to the other things I know, hindi ko na sasabihin. Kahit sa iba hindi ko na rin sinabi yun. Dahil bibigyan pa rin kita ng kaunting respeto. At alam kong wala ng reason para malaman mo pa, alam mo na kung anong dapat kong malaman.

I am hurting...hurting because you never liked me. I can never be angry because of this because I know it is beyond your control. Hurting ako dahil sa mga nalalaman ko...naiisip ko lang noon na magkasama tayong tatlo, hindi ko alam may ganyan ka na pala. And masakit isipin na you like someone else tapos tayo...tapos nakakasama pa nating dalawa. Hindi ko alam may plano ka na pala nyan. Hurting to know that your doing things you used to do for me. And worse mas higit pa. You know I was hurt badly when we broke up...kulang pa ba un? Kaya hindi ko talaga inaasahan ito. It was hard to keep up nung wala ka na, mas nahirapan ako nung ginawa mo un sa close friend ko nung tayo pa, mahirap din nung nalaman ko ung tungkol sayo, pero ito na yata ang pinakamahirap, ang ligawan mo bestfriend ko. Ayaw mo na ba akong ipagmove on talaga?! Gusto mo ba lahat ng kaibigan na soooobrang malapit sa akin mawala sa akin? Have I done something wrong to you? For you to repay me with this?!

Someone told me that at least you were man enough to end the relationship. Pero sa totoo lang hindi naman...pinaramdam mo lang sa akin na wala na, na mas masakit kaysa sabihin sa akin. You just gave me signs but too coward to tell me the truth. Pinaramdam mo sa akin ng paunti-unti...You said you wish we would be in good terms? Sana naisip mo yan bago mo ginawa ito.

- Remeber the time na niyaya kita samahan ako manood? Marami kang reasons to the point na kahit ano na lang sinabi mo. Too scared to hurt me? Or just too scared na bad memories ang maiwan mo sa akin? Well look at it now? Bigger damaged? Right?

- Remember nung time na nakaleave ako but I went here to give you something? We we're talking then, tapos pagdating niya iniwan mo ako and pumunta ka sa bay nya. All the time, kaya pala dikit ka ng dikit sa kanya...pinagmukha mo akong tanga.

- Remember na walang oras na lumapit ako sa iyo na hindi ka nakasimangot. Na para bang pinaparamdam mo sa akin na nakakaistorbo ako sayo.

- Kinausap kita kung gusto mong malaman kung sino si Stop...naalala mo sinagot mo sa akin ng pasigaw? "Huwag kang magulo, naglalaro ako."

- Alalahanin mo lahat ng mga oras na nagpaalam ako sayo ng matino, sinagot mo ako ng wala akong pakialam...masakit nun may ibang mga tao dun.

- Alalahanin mo lahat ng oras na sinigawan mo ako. Na parang lahat ng galit sa akin mo gustong ibuhos.

- Naaalala mo pa na ayaw mo ng trinatraydor ka? I tried sooooo hard to keep our relationship a secret from my new friends. Hindi ako masyadong naglalapit sayo dahil sabi mo ayaw mo ng issues and may gusto kang marating sa career mo, Ginawa ko un lahat kahit mahirap, pero bakit mo ako trinaydor ngayon? Kamag-anak mo ba si Hudas? Nyork!

Inintindi kita nun dahil iniisip ko ayokong dumagdag sa mga problema mo. And between the two of us ako ang dapat umintindi dahil ako lagi ang may oras. Yun ang lagi mong pinaparamdam. Lahat ng mga nangyari na yan, yan lahat ang diko makakalimutan. I can forgive but I know it will be hard to forget, dahil tumatak lahat nyan sa akin, hindi lang ung pangyayari lalo na ung pakiramdam.

Sinabi mo, ayaw mo akong madamay sa mga problema mo ngayon...kaya ba kaibigan ko na lang idadamay mo? You want me to feel that you're doing a noble act by letting me go. Iba naman pain ung binigay mo. Mahirap ba sayong sabihin ang totoo? Kung sinabi mo nun na hindi ka na masaya, aalis naman ako kaagad. Kaso lagi mong reason, ayaw mo akong madamay sa problema mo na kesyo unfair...you know very well na lalong hindi ako aalis nun.

Nahuhurt ako dahil ganun pala ako kawalang kwenta sayo. Dahil kung meron man, maiisip mo kung anong mararamdaman ko kung ginawa mo ito. Iniexpect mo ba na iintindihin kita? Hinahanapan ko ng reason kung bakit mo gingawa sa akin ito...dahil hindi ko maisip na ganito ka talaga.

Dati kapag sinasabi mong babawi ka...tapos hindi matutuloy, tapos babawi ka na naman, pero hindi na naman matutuloy, kapag sasabihin mong babawi ka ulit...umaasa pa rin ako nun na tutuparin mo...hindi ko inaasahan sa ganitong paraan mo ako babawian.

You've once told me nung naghiwalay tayo, na dapat lang sarili mo ang uunahin mo...but the road of life should not be traveled that way, kaya nga may stoplight...you should know when to stop, to listen and to go, para walang aksidente. Life isn't always about your happiness alone, you need also to put consideration people along the way. Dahil kung masasaktan mo sila hindi ka naman magiging totoong masaya.

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There was once a scorpion and a frog who wants to cross a river. The scorpion said "Frog help me cross the river, please?" The frog said, "No, if I do that you will bite me." The scorpion replied "I will not, if i'll do that both of us will drown." So the frog helped the scorpion to cross the river. While on the center of the river the scorpion bit the frog. While the frog is dying, he looked at the scorpion and said "Scorpion, why did you bite me?" The scorpion answered, "it's my nature."

A close friend of mine who knew you once said...apart from all of these, there's still goodness inside you...un nga lang weakness mo ang babae. God has given us the power to make choices, to distiguish right from wrong. That's why we could always be like the scorpion or choose to be someone who makes the right choices. Sinabi mo dati, paano kung may emotions...God put our head on top of our heart so that our emotions won't rule over us.

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Just found out that he is courting my bestfriend in the office...so what are you trying to prove? Kung di ka nahihiya sa akin mahiya ka sa kaibigan mo na ex nun.

Ayaw mo ng on the rebound at pahinga ka muna at kung kaibigan, kaibigan lang talaga?

Really, now!

I know better now...

A day after I made the presentation for him, I found out something really horrible about him. It is something that I wouldn't thought he would do. And what's really hurting me now, instead of putting things to rest between the two of us, I kept on finding things about him, things I wish I never knew. Everyday its as if a gruesome part of his personality unfold. And everyday my resentment for him grows. To the point that I don't wanna talk to him anymore and I don't wanna see him. Have I done something wrong to you? Did I not treat you good when we're still together? For you to repay me these things?

I didn't ask for anything from you but to respect me. During the relationship, even if I didn't feel you respected me as your girlfriend you should have at least respected me as a person. You don't have any right to treat me this way.

Right now I'm still angry...I never felt so betrayed in my life. Shame on me for trusting you so much that I was blinded from who you really are. Shame on me for giving you so much love even if you don't deserve it. I'm moving on, and I know I can get through this. I'll hold back my anger while I can, because I know I should respect you as my superior. And that's the only respect that you will be getting from me.