It has been a month now after the break up and it has been two weeks after I found out everything. I can say I am keeping up very well...there are times that I can still feel the hurt but being with my family and friends helps me a lot to mend the hurt inside.
What had happened almost crush my whole being, thankfully my values, the love of my family and friends and the things that I believed in made me whole again. I can't really say that I am totally over him, because if I am, I wouldn't be writing this blog. But feelings are aleady inconsequential now to say. I still believe on the cliche, "things happen for a reason." I know God let this happen because when he is still here by my side, I forgot to noticed poeple, people that are more worthy of my love and care. I don't see the small and big blessings God has given me. I know that this will make me a wiser and better person. And what happened made me realize the wonderful friendship I have with my bestfriend and my close friend. This made me appreciate them more.
I read this from gem_061969 blog:
"When break up comes and it's time to say goodbye, don't doubt the love just because it didn't last. There are things in life that doesn’t really last
and it doesn’t mean its not true at all. "
"Some good things are just never meant to last forever. Bless the parting and move on."
"Expect tears, sorrow, sleepless nights and pain.
As they say "it's when you hurt the worst that you love the MOST." If you are not willing to get hurt, then don’t fall in-love"
"Life is a balance. And love is both holding on and letting go. Know when to fight for your man and when to let him go. God will guide you."
"In a relationship...
What a girl needs most is love. What a guy needs
most is respect. The most important thing for a girl is her heart. For a guy its his ego."
Until now i'm not really sure if I really loved him. I've been in a lot of relatioship and "love" is a misused and over used word for me. Is it true? Or just a state of mind? How will I know I am in love? Questions that are yet to be answered...my quest for finding the real meaning of love goes on.
I may not be able to bring back what was ended but I can start a new life, without any traces of him. I can bring with me all the lessons learned and things that made me a stronger person. And when the time comes that I can let go of him completely, I know I will be truly happy.
