Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Feeling Alone


I have always been blessed with a wonderful family, friends and a husband. But why is it sometimes I still feel so alone.

I am in the dark with my sleeping husband beside me while I am writing this. It's almost midnight and I can't bring myself to sleep. If I try, I will only end up crying.

It has always been this way for several days now. I feel so lonely, so sad and I don't know why. It feels like something is missing in my life, but I just could not figure what it is.

It has been a month now since I quit my job. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, I get paid well and I love going to work. I have to resign because I will be studying in London. It was scheduled last month, unfortunately something went wrong and I have to transfer school. As of the moment, I am waiting for my acceptance letter from the new school. For how long I have to wait, I don't know. Maybe weeks, months...I honestly don't know. I asked my husband if I should get a job...I know getting another job will not be hard since I am experienced already in my chosen field. He said it would be best to just stay at home. I don't know what I am going to do with my life. Although I do all the household chores, I still feel that I am not doing anything worthwhile.

Thanks Ning Chai for the picture.
 

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