It’s been awhile since my last post here. Reading all my past post makes me realize how time passed so fast. I can still remember making all those tear-jerking videos and posting this on my Friendster profile:
"I've got my friends, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I need someone who really sees me
Then I'll give... all the love in the world"
If you haven’t noticed that is from one of The Corrs’ famous song, All the Love in the World. Months after, what I hoped for came. It was never expected but it happened, never thought it would be this wonderful but it did. Maybe, when things are meant to happen, everything will just fall into place.
“Life takes us by surprise and orders us to move toward the unknown – even when we don’t want to and when we think we don’t need to.”
- by The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
Uncertainty was the only sure thing I have when he came. He may love me truly but he might also hurt me. He can make me whole but he can also break me. Fear is inevitable but to live with it is optional. I have to make a choice. Take the risk or play it safe. Take the chance that life is offering or wait. Seeing how happy and contented I am right now, I have no doubt, I made the correct choice.
Making the choice was easy because he made it easy for me. He is someone I wanted from the start, someone caring, honest, someone who love me dearly and someone who really sees me. I am still having a hard time putting into words how much I feel for him. Maybe that’s the reason why it took me this long to put everything into writing. All I can say is I am truly in love with this person and that is the reason why I am marrying him.
The proposal or the talk about marriage started that December night when we were together. He mentioned about wanting me to be his wife and wants to settle down this year. I have no second thoughts of making him as my husband and surprisingly I was even hoping for it from the start. A month after that, we found out that I am pregnant.
I tried to remember the feeling when I first found out. I did remember it, but I can’t explain it. I am happy, excited and at the same time scared. He also assured me that he is very much delighted by the news and he wanted it from the start. By the next month he informed my family.
This is another journey of my life, and this time I won’t be traveling it alone because aside from my family and close friends, I have my husband and our child.
